
The day has arrived. I will be undergoing an operation. The lump on my left breast will be removed and will undergo biopsy. Thinking it is done in an outpatient basis, I thought of going to work after a day of proper rest, but of course the doctors won’t agree. They advised me at least a week of rest, which I won’t adhere, at all. Haha. In as much as I don’t want to leave my work, my head nurse advised me to consume my sick leaves instead because she knew the financial losses I would incur. So, yes I am on leave for three full days. Probably I will catch up with my “hitorigoto” by posting up my accumulated essays. Then, an update of my music player, plus a reorganization of my computer files. Then I shall… hmm. What else? My schedule is pretty much free.
Here’s to three full days of rest, and probably some moments of self-evaluation. The fear for this afternoon’s operation is getting clearer. I’ll be facing the operating table and the surgeon on my own.
Background Music: NTT (Presented by Junnosuke Taguchi) - GIRLS

In times of trouble and problems, I have the tendency of shying away from the crowd. I am never the type to ask for sympathy or tell my problems as they occur; the storytelling part just burdens me even more. Solitude becomes my bestfriend. It takes me days, even weeks, to pick myself up again. This explains my mysterious disappearances or the impression that I am too aloof and distant with my friends. I am used to think like that; I get by, but lately I realized the importance of letting it out on great companions who I trust.